Substantial.

So I haven't actually posted, like, a real post in a while. Mostly just quick little pointless sentence fragments.

Here's the 4-1-1 i spose.

1. I go back and forth between spending too much money on clothes and spending NO money on clothes. Like, I've worn the same pair of black authentics FOREVER and like pretty much half of the left shoe is gone from skating. I really should buy some new ones, but eh... I dunno. I really like fashion, I really like expressing myself through the clothes I wear, but it just seems so feeble. Like, why spend my money on clothes when I could buy...  I don't know, really. That's my dilemma. If I don't actually save for something, I'll just spend it all on gas and food. So should I just buy clothes? Cause buying CDs and Movies (which is where it all used to go) is pointless now because of torrenting. Also, I usually just buy Vynil which is way cooler and sounds way better. I don't play videogames anymore. I'm good as far as skate stuff goes. I dunno, the only things i can think of is car stuff and music stuff. Unfortunately music stuff usually costs in the 400-2,000 dollar range and I simply can't afford that. I mean, I'm already saving money for school and stuff. And I donate a percentage of each check to the youth center. But I'm just talking the spending money that I give myself on a monthly basis.

2. Enough of that. I have basically come to the conclusion that I am starting to be the good kid that I used to be. Except I need to be challenging myself a little more. I need to be reading more, and learning more. So I just spent the last hour or so researching things that are actually important, rather than comic book and star wars references. Trust me, I am a pandora's box of those as it is. I could give you a crash course on the topography of the planet Naboo. Which is terribly sad. But I've begun to draw again. I'm making music again. I care about people again. I watch indie movies again. The only thing is that once I begin to open my heart to the world, I get into that habit of falling in love with every girl I meet, which is not cool in the slightest. I'd really like to steer clear of that, because I'm still trying to stay single until I find a shorty for keeps, and I can already feel myself starting to get attached to people that I shouldn't be getting attached to.

3. There aren't enough hours in the day.

That is basically all.

My tunes.

Roots Manuva. Estelle. Thievery Corporation. MF Doom. Nas. Martina Topley-Bird. Billie Holiday. Miles Davis. Del Tha Funkee Homosapien. The Cool Kids. and Jay Z + DJ Danger Mouse (the grey album). I got so much good music yesterday. I'm getting really into hip-hop, it's weird.

all that matters.

www.myspace.com/frankensteinvintage

making music fun again :]

Oregon Adventure.

Dude the skate church in Oregon was so sick.

There was like a 15 foot roll-in ramp that goes stragiht into a launch ramp, that shoots you right into a freakin FOAM PIT.

Imagine, if you will, me flying thirty feet in the air yelling all kinds of odd ewok-esque noises attempting some sort of areal maneuver, and then disappearing into a big pool of foam cut-outs.

M-A-zing.

There was also a rope swing that leads into it, but I was the only one brave enough to do that because it's really scary. 

Anyways, the message was also really tight. He spoke of God's wrath and the fact that humanity is naturally opposed to anything Godly, and though we strive to be good, and we may THINK that we're good people, all in all we really are evil, which is why we need God's grace to to be able to be complete and fulfilled. I didn't do a very good job of explaining, but it was really neat.

And then we hit up Burgerville. Comparable to In N' Out, and that's sayin somethin, comin from me.

Now i need sleep.

So Sunlight.

Please disregard last message.

And thank you for any of your prayers. I was just having a really hard week but I met up with some peeps to talk about it at Shari's the other night at like 11pm ha. Then I filled up my gas tank and just drove around listening to mix cd's. I went from like... Tacoma to Federal Way, then I just drove up Shaw rd then back down Shaw rd, then down Pioneer all the way to Woodland, then up to Woodland all the way up to Emerald Ridge-ish area, then all the way around the loop back to my house. This all took about 2.5 hours, ha.

But it was very healthy. I turned my phone off and just got really into the music and drove. Theraputic!

Anyways I feel really awesome now, back in tip top shape. And I've been, like, exorcizing and stuff. And using those 10 free tans my mommy got me for my b-day (little embarrassed to admit that part). But I looked in the mirror today and was like "Dang, kiddo. Lookin' good!"

Which is always a nice feeling.

By the by, I was up at 7:30 this morning, on my own accord. I just woke up, saw that it was nice out and was like "Yeah! Let's do it!"

So now I'm probably gonna go skating. It was 26 degrees when I woke up though, but it's already almost 30 so seeing as how sunny it is by like 9 it'll probably be at least almost 40, which is fine by me!

Oh, and I started reading again, which means I'll probably start writing again soon.

And last night at work all these ideas for things to draw were popping into my head, which is a very good sign, since all of my creative juices had seemingly been wearing thin.

AUGH! Just goodness! Straight goodness!

People, Sometimes Ver. 2

I love when you take like 20 minutes to write a novella blog of epic proportions, review it, and decide to delete the whole thing.

I guess I just needed to vent, but didn't want anyone to actually know what I had to say.

Story of my life.

I can't remember the last time I've just felt so utterly pissed inside for so long at once.

Just pray for me if you can, please.

Spork.

Mergh.

1. YWAM?
2. Youth Center (We have 800 dollars and haven't even sent out sponsor letters and grant proposals yet, but we're having problems with the caretaker of the building we want(ed).)?
3. School over seas (University of Aseshi in Ghana [3500 a semester including room and board])?
4. Or work and Pierce/maybe apply to UWT (I know this sounds like the most boring option, but I could still do this option and the youth center at the same time, probly, AND it's the most 'productive' option, whatever that means.)?

So those are my options right now.

OR!!

Work for minimum wage at Zumiez till I become a manager then a district manager and basically work retail for the rest of my life till I die from an aneurism at 54.

That isn't really an option for me.