Everything I am is essentially something that I've seen in someone else that I've like along the way.
I'm like a salad bar of personality.
For example, I really look up to my worship leader Brandon, so I take after him a lot.
And other people I've met along the way. Like a shmorgasboard. (SP??!)
I mean, because when you mix numerous elements together, you get a totally new element, I guess that means I'm an individual. Because I am definitely not a carbon copy of Brandon. Nor anyone else that I've looked up to or seen things that I've applied in my own life.
But at the same time it makes me feel a little fake.
I draw because trevor drew.
I play guitar because my dad played guitar.
I listen to indie music because Lauren listened to indie music.
I read comic books because Seth Cohen reads comic books.
I watch indie films because Rebecca Waller watches indie films.
etc. etc. but at the same time I just realized that these aren't things that make up my personality, they're just things I do. So I guess that's ok.
Nevermind.
Haha I wrote a blog like this not too long ago and you left me this comment:
ReplyDeleteas far back as the king arthur archetype, the story of every hero follows the same pattern.
the farm boy must overcome his/her own limitations and embark on a journey that spans across a world that is far larger than he/she could ever possibly comprehend.
the farmboy must lose people he loves along the way, often times the farmboy somehow himself dies, whether it be physically or metaphorically to be resurrected as the hero in order to overcome the mortal obstacle that inevitably lies before him(her).
ie: star wars. lord of the rings. the matrix. whatever.
you are the hero of your own story, and every archetype has that wizard come along to sweep him up and whisk him away onto that journey. (Gandalf, Obi Wan, Morpheus, whatev.)
I'm not sure who your "wizard" is, but all's i'm saying is it's a lot easier to read books about other people's trials and tribulations of living than it is to experience them on our own.
you may be waiting for some great wizard or catalyst to begin your adventure, but your life IS your adventure, you may sculpt it into a script YOU prefer as willing.
i'm mostly just really bored and felt like feeling wise for a sec. hope i don't sound... precocious.
So now that I read that again it doesn't necessarily pertain to your situation. But I thought our blogs were fairly similar :]